The Raven Cometh

Where did all the yellow lights go?

2008-04-21T16:24:00.000-07:00

Okay, I have no idea what that means, too, but it was the first thing to come to mind.

I'm still alive. I guess. The good news is that I'm still at the same job, after close to a year. This is good news.

Feeling depressed lately...I'm sure no one wants to hear me whine, so if anyone is interested, go take a look at what I've been working on lately...namely, I've been trying out Linux again, and posting my thoughts and so forth about what I'm doing. I'm doing it over at mollities.livejournal.com. I tend to pay at least a little bit more attention to that than this blog, though I may start trolling around here once more...we shall see what the future brings.

Till next year...or whenever I decide to post again, whichever comes first.

Another day, another job...wait...

2007-06-07T15:36:00.000-07:00

Started a new job this week at a small network app developer in support. Hoping it goes well, has started out pretty good so far. Will try to keep posted this time, and actually come around once in a while.

Yes, it's true...I'm still alive.

..............

2007-04-13T17:39:00.000-07:00

.........yeah.

That's all I got for now.

How do you define "Whelmed"?

2006-07-07T13:28:00.000-07:00

Well, I don't really have anything much to post about, but it has been a really long time, and I feel badly that I am neglecting this again. Not many checking up, but still...I said I would be here, and I haven't been.

Bad news and good news. Bad news is that my contract at work was ended two weeks ago. Good news is that I have been extended an offer for another job, one that will pay less but include medical benifits and last much longer. Those are two really good benifits, if you ask me.

Well, other than that, just being lazy. Playing too much Warcraft, watching too much M*A*S*H (I love the fact that you can turn off the laugh track on the DVD release...I now own half of the series, from season 4 through 8...plan to get the rest over a month or two), and not doing enough productive things other than putting out applications. Funny thing is that the job I was offered wasn't even one I applied for...it was one a friend I used to work with put me in for.

Guess I will be working with him again! Cool, I like him...he's funny!

Other than that, love life not going so well...girlfriend complaining that I am not romantic enough, don't write to her enough, blah blah...Sorry, just cranky right now, both of us.

I don't have anything else to write about today, but I will at least try to be more up to things in the future. I feel like I've been saying that a lot lately.

Welcome to the World of Warcraft

2006-06-22T19:02:00.000-07:00

We regret to inform you that Laurel Raven will be incapacitated temporarily due to an unfortunate accident where by she encountered a terrible, bloodsucking creature known as "World Of Warcraft", which has drained all of her time and energy for anything else. We hope that she will be able to resurface soon, but fear that she may be forever lost.

Thank you for your patience.

Return of the Raven

2006-06-13T00:18:00.000-07:00

It is late, I don't have long, but I am hoping to write more soon. All I will say is that this is a very, very odd time in my life, and I understand almost none of it. Will I write about it? Maybe. I will write about something, that is for sure.

For now, I will say that, without a doubt, The Raven is here, and she is not going anywhere soon. Peace to all two of you still reading.

Meanie, tell your ma-ma I said hi! Ellie, I hope your computer problems find resolution soon! I would help if I knew a damn thing about Macs.

I hope this week is better than last.

Uncle Jack Strikes Back!

2006-06-02T21:32:00.000-07:00

Ohh...I'm not so sure that was a great idea. A little cheese, though, and I feel a bit better.

Anyway, just wanted to holler out to everyone, see how you all were doing! Yes, all two of you who actually read my blog.

Well, can't stay up for an hour tonight typing an entry, as I have to be to work tomorrow for a weekend shift, 8am sharp! So, I will just post an update on my live journal, polish off my cup of Jack, and be off to bed!

I hope everyone has a great weekend! I will check in periodically.

What I've Learned...

2006-05-30T19:39:00.000-07:00

Yet one more time, I have no idea what I am posting about, so I'm just posting my random thoughts. Boredom and a bit of (really good) beer will do that to you.

What did I learn this year so far? That sounds like fun; I think I will do that.

I learned that a cat will want you to pay attention to you when you are busy, but will be bored with you when you want to play with her. I learned that it feels good to be financially independent, even if it is in a small room of a house. I've learned that people can be more beautiful than you even imagined, especially when they are showing you what they fear is their worst side. I've learned that people can be uglier than you knew, especially when they have nothing but good intentions.

I've learned, yet again, that music is the best way to salve your mood, and is a more perfect companion to life than most anything. I've learned that what we hide inside of ourselves is hidden for a reason, that if we ever find it, we will be scared shitless by it.

I've learned that it is worth every ounce of scared, every shred of sanity, every ache and pain, to go that step, to throw yourself into that fiery abyss of your soul and learn every corner of your heart intimately. I've learned that it hurts. But I've also learned that it is real, and that it is a beautiful feeling when all is said and done, and through it all you are the same person. You just know yourself better.

I've learned that you can find friends where least expected, in people you would never have expected. I've learned that friends are priceless, and worth everything. I've learned that life is full of risk, and to not take a risk is to not live. I've learned that alcohol, while fun from time to time, is not an answer to anything, and only makes things worse. I've learned that the cutest little dog can melt your heart and drive you crazy in the same day. I've learned that love will take you to the ends of the earth, and the ends of your sanity.

And, most important, I've learned that it is all worth it. Don't give up, no matter what the odds. There is someone out there who cares.

Love,
Laurel Raven

Life has been...interesting

2006-05-22T23:35:00.000-07:00

You may notice (if anyone is even reading) that it has been a while since I have posted. Life is, as the Chinese curse, interesting. A time of confusion and self examination, in which everything has been turned upside down...everything that I thought I knew and understand has been brought into question in my own mind. Nothing is as it seems, nothing makes sense.

So, what is going on? Not something I am ready to talk about, unfortunately. Let me just say that it is something that will change my life as I know it, and nothing will ever be the same. At the same time that it tears down all that I knew and terrifies me with the idea of the torrent of change, it is also freeing, as it lets me know better who I am. For the first time in my life, I feel like I know myself, and that is a very liberating feeling. For the first time, strangely, I feel happy, sane, accepting of who I am. And, yet, I feel crazier than ever.

I don't expect anyone to understand something that I won't talk about. Hell, I know it and I barely understand. Just one of those things that feels like a crewel joke, but also know it is very, very real.

Well, that is everything I feel like talking about tonight. I hope I will post again soon, and might even talk about what has been going on.

Good night.

Welcome to Hell

2006-05-09T18:27:00.000-07:00

That was the poster that I passed on the way to work this morning, or rather, it should have been there...then, at least, I would have been ready for the day I had. Not that it was a bad day as far as work itself goes. However, I was definitely in a "quandary, full of loathing and self-doubt", and, for some reason, the thought that there is a place out there called Albuquerque did not help one damned bit (sorry, that was a Weird Al reference for anyone who hasn't heard that song).

I hate coming home at lunch to cry into a pillow just so I can go on with my day. Truly. It sucks. Plus, you have to explain why it is that you just spent an hour at lunch, and come back to immediately get something from the cafeteria. Fortunatly, noone noticed. Or, if they did, they didn't ask.

Oh, well...better than going on being bitchy and crabby through the rest of the day, right?

I love you, Uncle Jack!

2006-04-23T01:34:00.000-07:00

I have spent most of my night tonight with my Uncle Jack, and I have to tell you, he is wonderful. With him around, the whole world seems to be a little nicer, funner, and prettier. Instead of beating my head against this new Gentoo install, I am attacking it with a newfound (drunken) vigor that I did not have these last few days. Soon, this chick will be working with Gentoo instead of Windorks (that is, if the install does not fail again, in which case I may be using Xandros temporarily)

Yes, I love my Uncle Jack. Where would I be without him? By now, probably asleep like I should be, instead of drunk and working on my computer. Oh, well. We need to take time to learn now and again, right?

Well, it is now 3:40, and I'm feeling like passing out until my install is complete (or failed, whichever comes first). Wish me luck! At least it will be better than that Ubuntu crap.

"They were all in love with dieing, they were doing it in Texas"

2006-04-17T22:06:00.000-07:00

Well, at the risk of sounding like I am repeating myself, I must say that it is getting boreing out here in cyberland. I had ran across a few news stories that I felt like mentioning, but there is noone here to read and I forgot which ones they were in the first place. This is why I need to start writing things down. Never was much good at keeping a journal or diary, though. Maybe I will give it another shot.

Also, it isn't easy finding good blogs to peruse...most of them seem to be crap, at least the ones that I run into at random. I dunno...maybe I am going about this all wrong?

Well, anyway, another beautiful sun-shiny day. I think I'm ready to throw up.

All good things...

2006-04-16T13:08:00.000-07:00

In moratorium, I wanted to say that I have been following two blogs for a bit, both of which were heavy posters when I started reading. Wicked Truth, and Church of Jesus Christ of Even More Latter Day Saints. Both seem to have died. Am I just a curse? I don't know. However, I am saddned by their loss. It seems that the Church was probably doomed anyway, because far too few people realized what it was about. They thought he was some hate monger spewing filth, when the truth is that he was taking the christian religion and taking it to its natural extreem so that people will realize what it is that they are preaching. The only thing uglier than what he said is the bible itself.

The Wicked Truth was great, and I am sorry to see it die. If there is ever a campaign to bring back Mr. Hand, I will be right there, cheering it on. I hope that someday, we will get to hear from him again, along with all the crazy people he relates with.

Farewell, both of you. I can only hope that I ever have a fraction the impact that the two of you did.

For your random pleasure

2006-04-16T13:04:00.000-07:00

Okay, so noone is here anyway, but I wanted to start posting again...real life is just too damn boring by itself.

Yet, I still don't know what I'm supposed to be talking about. So, I will just say something random.

Yeah.

The first thing to come to my mind.

Any day now.

Hmmm...doesn't seem to be working.

Oh, bloody hell...if you're reading this, download FireFox! IE sucks!

Ho, hum

2006-03-20T16:51:00.000-08:00

Life is still boring. Why do I keep coming here when I know that noone is reading this crap anyway? Do I care? I don't know. Maybe I don't. Maybe I do. The two places that I started reading seemed to post a crap of a lot of stuff all the time, then both seemed to just stop. What the hell? Does this mean I have to find other blogs to entertain me? What about the time and effort I went into to find those blogs!? I want my money back!

Wait...nevermind.

Women live longer, part 3

2006-03-15T16:35:00.000-08:00

Women live longer, part 2

2006-03-14T22:20:00.000-08:00

Just wanted to add another post about why it is that women live longer. Here you go!

Women live longer

2006-03-10T19:20:00.000-08:00

Don't you just love being without money? Such a wonderful experiance knowing that there is nothing to do because you have no money to do. So, until I get paid, I am stuck in the pergatory. I guess I should clean my bedroom. It needs it.

Well, before I get off, I want to post a picture showing why it is that women live longer:

Where are we going, and why are we in this handbasket?

2006-03-07T21:54:00.000-08:00

I just read that South Dakota has signed a law that will outlaw abortions. Man, I love it when people tell us what to do with our bodies. Maybe they would like it if I told them what they could go do with theirs?!

Well, I will say that at least I don't live there, but I doubt that OK will be far behind...we are in the bible belt, after all, with more friggen churches on every street corner, I'm surprised they don't just join with the gas companies! Fill up and be saved! The ultimate convenience!

Do you know what all of this makes me think of? All of these dumb asses are the same ones who are making a stink when we actually try to educate our kids! Teach them what sex is, so they don't learn it from the other kids who don't know a damn thing about it anyway! Teach them what contraception is, so that the number of unwanted pregnancies will go down! They think that the only thing we should be teaching our kids about sex is not to do it. Well, I have news for you: they are human, too, and they will damn well do it! Telling them not to is to make them think it is cool and mysterious, and want it all the more. And, when they go do it, they will know little or nothing about the REAL dangers, or how to prevent them with protection like condoms.

Contraception should be provided to these kids! They will save themselves and their parents (and their partners) a lot of grief if they have it available to them! Yes, this is also the fault of the parents. They should be teaching their kids about it, too. But the church has made it such a taboo that noone wants to risk making their kids heathen sinners. I've got news for you. They are only humans. They have desires, and suppressing those desires is very unhealthy.

So, South Dakota, you want to cut down on abortions, making them illegal won't work. Teaching your children about sex and protection will. Let them make the choice with all the information they need to make the best one, before they have to make the choice of how to get out of the mess they made.

Lots of love.

Damn computers...who needs em?

2006-03-05T16:13:00.000-08:00

Why does everything have to be such a mess? I finally figured out why I was having trouble with my blog's template...and it wasn't blogger at all! It was an extension I have for Firefox! So, after spending an extra hour just turning them off, one by one, to see which one was doing it, I found out that the problem was fixed by an update, so I didn't have to mess with any of them, anyway!

Honestly, who thought up computers? I swear someone came up with the idea for them knowing that someday, I would be tortured by them for hours trying to get them to work the way they are supposed to in the first place! It's a freaking curse to be good with these piles of crap! Everyone wants me to fix them, and I just want to scream! No! I WILL NOT FIX YOUR COMPUTER, DAMMIT!!!

Whew. That felt good to get out.

Well, as my happy bunny profile suggests, you can all kiss my ass if you don't like that. Or, you can kiss my ass if you just want to kiss my ass.

On another note, I've decided something: anyone who gets between me and my diet coke better look out! Without DC, all the chocolate I eat would make me feel guilty. Without my chocolate, I would get crabby and nasty. Then, I would take it all out on you!

You've been warned.

Bitching about work

2006-03-01T11:48:00.000-08:00

You know, I hate it when work asks me to come in late. Just when you get all used to a regular, 8-5 schedule, they say they want me to come in for a late shift. So, just when I get used to being in bed by 10, I'm working til midnight. Then, I have to right away re-adjust! I ask you, how is anyone supposed to maintain sanity like this?!

But, the wretched truth of the matter is that there is nothing I can do...grin, bear it, pretend to kiss their butt, while making little dart boards with their pictures on them for target practice. Or maybe bowling with their heads on the top of the pins. Yeah, that sounds about right.

Well, I don't know if this is cool, or a hassle...I actually get a pager for work. Woohoo! And, every day, I get a horoscope. I didn't sign up for one, but it still comes, faithfully, every day. And the sad part is, it isn't even my own horoscope! It's for Libra. But, it is amusing. I would type them up here, but I turned it off last night, and I can't figure out how to get the stupid thing to come back on. I hit a button, and it dutifully informs me that it is in off mode...well, duh! I know it's off! I want it to come back on! And, of course, I lost the damn instructions, thinking that I wouldn't need them. Figures.

Well, people, that is all I have for now, your little fix on what the Raven is not doing today...namely, anything productive at all. I could always say "Nevermore" here, but that would be too predictable.

Still just bullshitting around

2006-02-28T12:58:00.000-08:00

Okay, dunno what to post about yet...I guess I will figure it out. You know, that sort of thing just comes to me sometimes. Then again, sometimes it seems to avoid me. Like now. Maybe I should get drunk again? But, then, my work would probably not like that too much, so I guess I can't tonight. Bummer.

So, what do you think of this idea: I just come here to bitch and complain about the crap I see every day? That would be fun, wouldn't it? Maybe. Not feeling in the bitchy mood right now...not feeling in much of any mood right now, so I'll just go with that.

Seems after one post, I have been proposed to by someone I've only seen once in a blog, after he called me a sinner. Well, he did say "spiritual wife", so I guess that isn't the same thing, but anyway...

People are weird, I fully believe that now. Not like I ever doubted it...I'm one of them, so I should know, right? Maybe.

Well, I'm getting bored shooting the shit, so come back some other time...maybe I'll be in a bad mood again and really have something to bitch about. Won't that be fun!

WTF? Why not?

2006-02-27T21:50:00.000-08:00

Every day, we learn something new. Sometimes, it isn't something we want to learn, but we learn it all the same. Then, there are days in which we learn wonderful things. However, these days are definatly outnumbered by what we don't want to learn.

It has been said to be once before, by metaphysics advocates, that those who need glasses to see do so because there is something they don't want to see subcontiously. However, from my observation, that should mean that 98% of the world would then need glasses of some strength or another, because almost all of us hide our heads in the sand, many of us quite frequently. Those that can play off of that self-induced blindness will be those with the most power. Take the US president, for example. For a long while, half the country or more actually believed what this baffoon said, regardless of the facts staring them in the face, available if only they did a tiny bit of digging or reasoning.

Take me, for example. I'm down, so what do I do? I get drunk and make a blog so I can bitch and moan. That is what I am here for, yes it is. If you don't like it, then leave.

On an up note, I probably won't spend all of my time bitching. I'm sure I won't always be surly. I know I am not that way all of the time. It's just an easier way to deal with reality, rather than pasting a stupid fucking grin on my face every day, pretending to be one of the ass lickers so I can get a leg up. More healthy.

Anyway, thats all I care to say right now, so piss off. I'll post again, I'm sure.

(You can tell that I am in a bad mood tonight, can't you?)